It was pouring rain a few days ago, and Jaqs wanted out in it so bad, so we opened the back door and let her at it. She loved it, and the whole time I watched her play and dance in the rain, I kept hearing the song lyrics to "Praise You In This Storm" by Casting Crowns playing in my head.
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| taking it slow at first |
This time of year is always difficult for me simply because I have to "let go" of my hubby for several months after having tons of time together in the 6 weeks prior. In the last couple of weeks leading up to coaching school, I feel the sadness start to creep in...I begin to feel a little empty and overwhelmed at "single" mom-ing it again. Then I start to feel guilty because I've got it so easy compared to military wives and single moms. After all, my hubby still ends his day beside me in bed, and I know he's safe.
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| this may be a new fav...if only it wasn't an iPhone pic! |
I guess we can't really help the way we truly feel though, can we? I know that I'm blessed, and I have to remember that in those moments when Jaqs is throwing her 15th fit of the day because I made her close the refrigerator door or asked her to stop running around with a toothbrush hanging out of her mouth (true stories). I know there are many women who would give everything to spend their days with their babies, and I know it because I've been there.
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| post rain dance snuggles & milkies |
I have to keep in mind that I'm not the only one "missing" out. I know it can't be easy for Rob to be away from his family 90+ hours and 7 days out of the week no matter how much he loves his job, which he absolutely does. I also know that Jaqs would love nothing more than for all 3 of us to be together to play all day every day. I've got to keep in mind the gaps I must fill for each of them, too. It's what families do, right? They're there for each other for love, support, encouragement, and GRACE through whatever situations we may face. After all, this life I'm living is all I've ever dreamed of AND MORE.
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| first time wearing a tshirt, and I have to say, it's one of the cutest things I've seen! |
"I lift my eyes unto the hills,
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord,
The Maker of Heaven & Earth
And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are,
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn,
I will praise You in this storm."
4 comments:
I had the same type of post yesterday. It gets tough and we can always find fault in our situation but let's not do that. Let's focus on the best part of life - the joys we have!
You mean you don't let your toddler run around with her tooth brush in her mouth?! Mean mom, Poor kiddo ;-). We have that same conversation (aka tantrum starter) at our house a few times a week!
Change is hard no matter the situation! Make the most of your last few days before "single momming".
I love this and I totally get it. Sometimes I feel bad complaining about my "problems" because of what others are going through. It's your life right now and I like your honesty!
90 hours a week?! Gees, that is rough. I understand how you feel. Single mom-ing it is tough + just missing your BFF hubby. Prayers for you!
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